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13 April 2004
3:58 pm

i wore a skirt today. i am not sure how this is working out. sometimes all i need is a nice change.

and vespertine. ... it is absolutely perfect. well worth the fifteen dollars i would have spent if i had purchased it new instead of used. it makes me want to sing, it makes me want to bludgeon myself in the head. it makes me feel beautiful, it makes me feel ugly.

when there are lots of objects and people crowded in the customer service area, i get very.. what is the word. upset. distracted. a mix between the two? it is disconcerting. [i like the dictionary because i like looking up words and finding i already knew the definition but i do not like the dictionary because they add words like "muggle"] i can not focus or concentrate and then customers are involved in the chaos and they come from whichever direction they see fit to any counter space available. take a number so i can sort you out.

i am trying to be more concious of what it is i write, and in turn, less concious. to understand is to not understand.

i am considering 100words.net, though not with any fervor. only passing thoughts.

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i stole my brother's bike. i snuck it out of the carport and the quiet clicking of the gears was not loud enough to get through the thin walls. it has been four or five years since the last ride. but i sat right on and pushed the pedals around. i went ever so slowly over the speed bumps. i could lean into the turns and not fall off. it was dark but i was careful. i crossed the street but looked both ways. i felt like i was five and no one knew where i was. i had escaped.

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