i've been numb for the past two days and haven't been able to cry. i felt no pain because i wasn't feeling anything, and was able to pretend.. maybe it was a little more if i can fool myself i can fool anybody than i thought.. but i started to feel it again on the ride home and my head started to hurt. and i get home and think for a second that he needs me, but i am quickly told sorry to bother you and it all comes rushing back like a heart attack and i can't ignore it anymore..

fits right in line with the rest of the night.