well.. here i am. my clothes are in the closet, my fan is on. my bed is turned on a different wall and there is a small lamp on a table next to the bed, casting a bronze light on what's left of the strawberry lemonade. it feels much more comfortable in the room this way. much more. i can feel the circulation. my alarm is set, my room is clean (though there is still plenty to be done with it).

but i don't want to sleep cause i can't shake this empty feeling. something is missing.