it is too fucking hot in this house. i had to shut the air conditioner because it was dripping all over the fucking place. my cats are panting. i can't live like this.

however, it does make for interesting and vivid dreams (since it throws me into thick murky sleep).. yesterday's was... strong and lucid.. begging my mom to move back down here and be my roommate.. then i was in the middle of the road towards tarpon, taking a picture. cars were zooming past me and i was huddled next to the car, praying i wouldn't get hit. on the side of the road i saw nick tumble into a ditch and someone- ran with a first aid kit. i had to do something, but i was in the middle of traffic. what could i do? i started to panic and i looked up, and all the cars had stopped. eerily, just waiting in a line. i heard a ringing. i'm dreaming, i said. well, if that's the case, i can do whatever i want. hold on. the cars started to drive at top speed and i wrapped my arms around the driver's seat and let my legs swing with the door as the car spun around, through other cars to the side of the road. but with that realisation came dissipation and the dream started to slip away. i got to the side of the road and he was nowhere to be found. between that and my mother, i woke up crying. this was, of course, after i watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, so i'm sure that had something to do with it.

today's dream was fantastic. i was going on an interglactic adventure! :D totally ripped off from hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy, but i am more than okay with that. i don't remember how i got into space, only that someone else and i were in the same ship but we were on different missions. and i realised something was going wrong for us, the people in charge were evil evil. so i packed my pillowcase with all my stuffed animals. "i do not have a towel." i said. then i pressed the red button to blow up the sun. there was a fantastic explosion. i ran to my partner. "we must escape!" i said. we landed.. somewhere.. it was at that point my partner was jared leto, i don't remember who it was before that or what happened when we landed.. in this neighborhood area, but david jenks was in a fight with a big trucker man. he gave me two tiny golden hats with two sets of four digits on the inside. insisted i go to this school, and he gave me a long string of letters, to rescue him. jared leto and i must have ruined the ship when we crashed because it took forever to get it off the ground. we tried to push it and jared leto just couldn't run fast enough. i started steering and pulling back on the steering thingy and next thing i know i'm five hundred million miles in the air, screaming back down towards the ground, and just as i'm about to hit, someone distracts me and i just sort of bump on the ground. then i'm at this restaurant, their banana pancakes are to die for and i'm ordering a gin and tonic from the bartender so this waitress i met, who's also from earth, is trying to get the address from david's file while the waitress's back is turned. but they are OUT OF GIN AND TONIC, much to my dismay, and no, i would not like to settle my tab (apparently i've been here before). so i go back to the table and jared leto is now michele or someone. "well, you could go back to earth," i said. "be bored with your life. same old humdrum existance. or you could see beautiful things you never thought existed. travel the galaxy. i'm sure you'll be back by 2008. but we have to get some towels."
"towels?"
"yeah, they're neccessary." i said, clutching my pillow case full of all the best stuffed animals i own, as though i were on a sleepover. "and i don't know where the hell i'm going to find an electronic thumb these days.. we need some way to hitchhike..."
i look up at this gorgeous one-dimensional building towering over everything else. this will be quite a trip..

and i was so disappointed when i woke up.