You may not have God on your side, but you've got the next best thing. Invisible means of support will soon become visible. Life may even give you permission to have your cake and eat it too. I'll go so far as to speculate that you'll be the beneficiary of a conspiracy to help you achieve goals you didn't even know you needed to achieve. In light of the fact that you will have most of the help you could possibly require, I can think of only one piece of advice that might prove useful: Being a little rowdy or impish could give your goodness greater impact.

there are other things i guess i could say. but i have been very tired the past two days. driving long distances to stay for a few days always makes me feel a little disconnected when i come back. it is a nice side effect from spending time with yourself watching the scenery dissolve into itself, and into darkness as you stop going west and start heading north.

i've actually been writing on paper for once, in a red and black faux snakeskin book that my mom got for me at ross for four dollars, hey. for once i'm actively choosing to write to myself truthfully and openly. i can't give advice to people and tell them that there is nothing more important than being honest with oneself and acknowledging what you feel and then not have a real clue about myself.

i've thought about closing shop here.. but i've also thought about deleting my myspace and have yet to do that. besides, i like the way this one talks to me, even if it is all vagueries and lack of punctuation.

i am excited about starting work next monday. i am excited about finding a storage unit tomorrow and then packing most of what i have into said unit. setting up here for a .. eh, a while. who knows. i have a novel to write next month and a job to get comfortable at. money to save and things to plan for. things to accomplish. following through to do.

blah blah blah, etc