no, seriously. i just want to make sure you understand. i am so excited. i literally cannot contain myself. the more i think about it, the stronger that ineffable feeling grows; the one that the good songs produce. the more i think about it, the more excited i get. the kind of happy that makes me want to cry.

i'm not even afraid. at all. the automatic thought that i might fuck it up somehow hasn't plagued me whatsoever.

i think that makes quite a bit of difference. yesss, i do.