what is going on in this world?

so i've been really looking forward to this year, we all know that.

for a moment, let us take all the terrific things i expect to happen and remove them from the equation.

if the way that i've been feeling is any indication of the way things will go.. the ways i will grow and change and cheesy lovely things

i am so sleepy right now.. i want to type things but i keep falling asleep mid sentence

i have to finish packing and move out of this house by this week

i need to stop randomly crying at things
or rather, get used to the idea that that is going to happen

i told elise the other day
now i remember why depression is so easy
when i'm happy, i have all these emotions and shit

i would like to say more, but i just dreamt three conversations and a dance party, so i think it's time for bed

oh yes, definetly because there was elise, just now, showing me her tattoo that she and tiffany got of individual human tetris players and i was like 'how do you get them through the obstacles then?' and in trying to answer that ridiculous question, i got knocked off the platform of 'random automatic shutdown' or in other words, i realised i'd fallen asleep again

i love you
goodnight world