ohhh and there it is, the envy of you, my little young friend, eighteen years old, ready for her senior year, then college, then the peace corps

and it's nice to see her have it all figured out
but the envy comes in that i feel like i have only recently figured it all out
and i do, these days, blame it on circumstance
that when i should have had it all figured out
it was all a mess, and nothing of my doing
don't get me wrong
i always take responsibility for my actions
but i was greatly affected by the actions of others...

so when they ask me if i could go back
i wouldn't want to leave the time now
i just...
eh, i'd still be in the same position
just wishing i could fix it