there is a severe lack of balance between what i am doing and would like to be doing, and i know what i normally do in these situation, but i am trying to be a responsible adults and responsible adults don't just up and quit their jobs. i wanted to write about this, long and rambling,like what i just read, but i was too tired last night and it's too late this morning.

my mother said i'm stressed out because i'm not writing enough. kevin said he's been saying that. he has.

there's no time. i'm not writing at all. i'm actually kind of miserable at this job.

more on this later. can't wait for vacation.