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sunday avoided

29 September 2008
12:08 am

(and i think, "and why don't you take that amp back while you're at it" and suddenly, needlessly, irrationally, it all opens up below me, the cloud cover dissolves and i am hovering over something like the grand canyon and i am poised, floating, like the top of the rollercoaster, i can see the great empty sunday chasm below me, threatening to tear all my stability to shreds, i am tugging on shoulder harnesses and screaming out your name, i am begging to take this ride, let's drop so we can be moving along again and i can realise that it's all just a game, it's all in fun, let's get it over with or let's not do it, i don't want to go through all this again... i am standing on the precipice of bad madness until i look up from my delusions at the sound of pencils scratching across paper, to the eyes i love to see especially when they are locked intently on some goal, that will come, with just a little more attention.

i look back down and the chasm hasn't closed, it was never there to begin with)

his eyes dart up, his eyebrows raise, he crooks a smile and then, back to the page, just a moment to note he can hear me thinking