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someone say a hail mary for this house

04 October 2008
4:39 pm

< vague > and now, now that i've let go--now, that one comment has been made (because i've been able to pinpoint it to that one line) now and now and now, it no longer bothers me < /vague >

now how in the hell does one actually plan to write a book? so far i've done a lot of purchasing things semi related (a computer. an adorable half table for kevin to put on his computer) we've rearranged the little room to make it more functional with plans to put my clothes in the bedroom so this will soon be soley office/workroom/whathaveyou. now that everything's clean.. i don't really know how to start planning. i'd like to do the complete opposite of what i'd normally do, which would be not to plan at all. so i'd like to try and fuck up that whole machine, plan everything out, so i can spend all month deviating from it, but at least with an idea of what i'm doing.

i think the first step, well, i've already completed the first step. i mentioned it to elise, which is unlikely. i mentioned it to michele, which is also unlikely unless i can find her an unshared machine to use. des is too busy. but ah, kevin told me yesterday he'd like to have his own book to show by spring. so i said, well hell, finish your current drawings by the end of october, and we'll be a happy pair of writers thru all of november. excellent. i cannot do this on my own. i need that fire.

but the first step that i must embark upon in the planning stages, and you may not agree with me on this, but here it is for all of us to see--the first step is for me to go out and find a gas station that carries clove cigarettes. because i have had the whole of two cigarettes since i returned from vacation (two weeks?) and quite frankly this cool air and trail of dead hoodie is bringing out the clove smoker in me. GOD BLESS IT i'm at least going to have to purchase some incense to satisfy my smoke watching and as for my oral fixation... well.. i'll leave that to your imagination.

so. not the best idea, you think? i can't guarantee it's not going to happen, but perhaps i can wait.. just a little while longer..

i need to finish that band myspace stuff by next week and i really can't do anything until kevin draws me a cleaner logo but perhaps i'll deny myself playing in photoshop until i start getting some work done. beans in a basket and christ on crutches, i hate purposely denying myself things.. much better to be denied and let it last much longer than neccesary...

maybe i'll just scrap my pieces of ideas and write a novel out of this murder by death album.. no no.. it's a comic book if it's anything on paper.. please don't let their necks droop towards the ground. please don't let your mom's neck droop. BOOYA MINDY