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fuck fuck fuck why did I do that, that was so dumb I'm an idiot, I went too far I forget that my writing on lj was not nearly as coded and focused pretty heavily on 2004 I always remember it as 2005 being the worst but at least there were releases looking at 2004 is just pain and shame and sorrow all leading up to that and recorded social interactions with friends I'm no longer close to, or talk to at all and proof I'm still a pile of the same fucking questions 15 years later no wonder no wonder no wonder oh my godddd I want to stab my eye and I havent moved all day that was so fucking dumb, why did I do that
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