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love and war in the time of fiber optics

24 February 2022
8:20 pm

god I want a fucking cigarette

it's been three months again
and I know it won't feel good
or help anything

but I've been thinking about it for weeks
and we've been watching this show
where all they do is smoke and make jokes
and wear pretty dresses

I drank all my coffee and it's too late to make more
last night I had a meltdown about my divorce--
the one I wanted, yes-- the one that's eight years old--

I didn't write down any of it
I didn't write anything down

and now we're at war
don't tell me we're not
like hell we're not

I can be in two points of time at once
I am buried in everyone's rubble

and I really want a fucking cigarette