"this is for you, in those moments when you have no one to talk to." i was going to go and buy a pretty little journal thing for a friend of mine and write that inside. then i thought, hey, maybe it's time i get off my ass.

but, in the meantime, here's fun with dan and sara.

pseudosara: hola danish

v Tokaimura: yo

pseudosara: how goes it?

v Tokaimura: slow and boring. ly.

pseudosara: eek. roomate/

pseudosara: ?

v Tokaimura: two of em

v Tokaimura: all in differnt rooms

pseudosara: oh, that's peachy. are they scary?

v Tokaimura: i think one was trying to come on to me

pseudosara: LOL

v Tokaimura: he's one of those people who won't walk away when the conversation is over

v Tokaimura: i hate that

v Tokaimura: i'm obviously directing my attention away from you. GO AWAY.

pseudosara: hehe

v Tokaimura: that's john

v Tokaimura: and then there's Rodriguez Thornton

pseudosara: smack him everytime he does that with a rolled up newspaper. train him like a puppy.

v Tokaimura: who seemed really nice the two times i've actually seen him

v Tokaimura: i would but he's an ex marine

pseudosara: hehe

pseudosara: yikes!

v Tokaimura: i mean he doesn't seem big or scary or anything

v Tokaimura: he's a skinny little wimpy lookin guy

v Tokaimura: but still

v Tokaimura: rodriguez thornton, tho, is a very interesting name

pseudosara: that it is. even rodriguez as a first name is interesting.

v Tokaimura: "Rod"

v Tokaimura: and it's not a name you'd assume belongs to a black man

pseudosara: true.

pseudosara: i knew a girl named kim thornton once. she was an oddball.

v Tokaimura: hehe

v Tokaimura: so yeah i'm bored

pseudosara: poor danno.

v Tokaimura: i started working on polyurathane black candles again

pseudosara: i should be cleaning my room or the house or something.. but instead i'm being weird and painting a self portrait on my mirror. HA.

yesssss!

v Tokaimura: yeah taht sounds like you

pseudosara: "a positive personal image" i'm calling it. as long as i don't fuck it up, in which case it will just be "see how bad that looks? you look so much better." and i'll probably end up painting things like "i'm not beautiful like you i'm beautiful like me" and stupid little colorful squares and shit. i'm feeling quite gay today.

v Tokaimura: good lord

pseudosara: i'll probably ditch the words in favor of more squares and perhaps a star or two. hahaha.

pseudosara: school's starting to get to me. *twich*

pseudosara: twitch, rather

v Tokaimura: hehe

pseudosara: so. your input.

v Tokaimura: on?

pseudosara: i don't *have* to do a project in drama, but i am going to becuase i like to pretend i am an overachiver in something, and besides, those dumb kids in 3period praise me every chance they get.

v Tokaimura: lol

pseudosara: i can either do a super monologue from rosencrantz and guildernstern are dead that they won't understand, but will love me because i will yell and act crazy, and even if i am as bad as tori spelling, they will nominate me for an award. because, like i said, htey're dumb. or i can create a piece of "performance art" over the weekend that will confuse and/or scare them.

pseudosara: hahah

v Tokaimura: hm!

v Tokaimura: so you win either way

pseudosara: of course. they love me!

pseudosara: hehe

pseudosara: "sara, you're such a good actress." "sara, be in OUR play." "sara, you and mark are the best."

i don't get it. i'm so fucking weird in that class. i beat myself up yesterday.

pseudosara: i think they're feeding them drugs through the school food.

v Tokaimura: that's how it works

v Tokaimura: or they're just making fun of you and you don't get it

pseudosara: no, they're pretty much all like that.. the seniors don't, and a couple of the people i've never talked to... but the only one other than that is brandie.. but we're both jackasses. today, i tryed to zorro her. then she's like, "draw a tattoo on my arm, but don't make it stupid." i, knowing how hard she hits me, draw one of those hearts with a ribbon across it that says "mom", seeking refuge in the bathroom immediately after. i come out with a can of bug spray, only to be told by teacher lady to put it away... then she hits me. stupid girl. i'm so glad i never had a sister.

v Tokaimura: hhaha

v Tokaimura: you never put this good stuff on your page

pseudosara: :-)

v Tokaimura: it's always whiney sentimental trash

v Tokaimura: c'mon

pseudosara: that's cause i don't have a page. hehe.

v Tokaimura: ;>

v Tokaimura: i know!

pseudosara: sooon

v Tokaimura: and your imood, julia has serious issues with how long it's been since you updated that

pseudosara: heheh

pseudosara: i want to try to get my page up this weekend, i just have to find time to do it. hehe.

v Tokaimura: instead we have: mirror art.

pseudosara: hehe

pseudosara: well

pseudosara: this shouldn't take that long

pseudosara: it's going to end up as a giant black blob

v Tokaimura: woohoo

pseudosara: with rasputina lyrics painted in red everywhere

pseudosara: i was trying to convince mark to share in my idea and change into a new "personality" every week.

v Tokaimura: too much effort

v Tokaimura: hehe

pseudosara: but we don't own enough black clothes to be goth

v Tokaimura: you could be too goth for black clothing

pseudosara: oooh, too goth for black = bright pink!

v Tokaimura: you're so wrapped up in angst and ennui that you can't b e bothered to care about how you dress

v Tokaimura: heh heh perkygoff

pseudosara: lol

pseudosara: hahahhahahah

pseudosara: fuck it

pseudosara: i'm starting a new trend

v Tokaimura: hehe

pseudosara: i'm going to start dressing in white robes and wearing slippers and handing flowers to the "oppressed" and "misguided" children at school (read: all of them) with pamphlets on what specifically is wrong with them and how they can fix it

v Tokaimura: you just like being hit.

pseudosara: this is true.

pseudosara: but if i could get just one person to join me...

pseudosara: my life would be complete.

v Tokaimura: hehe

v Tokaimura: you'd better find that someone quickly

v Tokaimura: white robes get dirty easily

pseudosara: especially when i'm being beaten to a bloody pulp by the girls i address as "doilies"

v Tokaimura: lol

v Tokaimura: is that a blonde waif?

pseudosara: haha, no

pseudosara: the only girl to fit in the category of "doily" so far is jen storke, and i can't really explain why she's a doily. it just seems to fit. even the way the girl MOVES irritates me to no end. ask sean about her. he made her cry last year. hahhaha.

v Tokaimura: lol

v Tokaimura: that's not much of an accomplishment for him tho

pseudosara: she turns the english class into a chinese massage parlor, catering specifically to the needs of the macdougals.

v Tokaimura: okay now you lost me

pseudosara: today, yesterday, many days before she gives these massages to sean and dan macdougall and it's RIDICULOUS... "oh.. my hands are cold.. here, dan, let me rub your hand."

pseudosara: i want to hit her.

pseudosara: with a piano

v Tokaimura: i think you care too much

v Tokaimura: :>

pseudosara: true. heh.

pseudosara: she's irritating though.

pseudosara: is it too much to ask that she fall into one of the holes and they erect a building over her or sidewalk or something?

v Tokaimura: hehe

v Tokaimura: so arrange it :>

pseudosara: yeah.. those construction workers will do anything if you pay the right price.ha.

pseudosara: anyway. i must go.

pseudosara: i will talk to you later, o god of joy and parsimmons.