the burden of being untimely. i missed the whole elgg rivven practice last night-- came up during what turned out to be the last one. i walked in and corey turned around--

"what's your favorite song?"

uh. uh. uh. stutter.
"all of them!"

but they couldn't play all of them again--much to my dismay-- only a couple of these songs ever had names-- but i let out a "...steps!"

..and secretly pressed record.

now i hold in my hand a mini speaker with a mini elgg rivven safe inside until the mini tape breaks and warbles so badly i cannot hear it. only one song-- but blessed thing, it's the one that has me the most--and has from the first time i heard it. when i sat there with angie, my eyes wide-- i didn't know what to expect, and here, i was handed this. and then again with dan, comatose on the couch--straight line from the center of my chest-- cause time and distance hold no contest to music that can affect me just as well physically-- and every time i hear it it's like the last-- listening desperately like there's no tomorrow

breathing less & less & slower still.. or maybe-- too much too deeply.

and when i played it back after it was over it was like they hadn't heard anything they were playing this whole time.

boys, be proud.

i really can't get enough