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Talking to some random person, I said, "AND I have to work at eight in the morning. The show doesn't start at midnight. THAT proves I'm nineteen." And I thought: I'm... nineteen. For some reason I just felt it then. On the radio came some friday night techno song that I actually quite enjoy but it fills me with this emotion I can't identify. It blurs between sadness and just the feeling of being older and god what am I doing? and just this immense happiness that I am alive and experiencing these things. I am a very conflicted individual. The aforementioned song also cause me to think about Some Other Thing that has of recently become inflamed and sore. I took myself to the doctor and I'm still waiting on his prescription. Also from the aformentioned conversation: "You were in the navy and over seas at 19. I am a bum who decided she didn't want to be in college anymore and would still desperately like to be a musician but in the meantime is just a waitress." I don't suppose I have much invested in the things I am doing these days. ps. hahahha. (I think it's always good to have a laugh at the end.)
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