today is just kind of a fucked up day in here. too emotional. too many emotions.

sit in bathrooms. small spaces calm me.

walking home it was like
the sky was too big for me to cross the street
and i was in a real wild loop like
"if i'm being honest
when you left i think you took something
of me with you i have never been able
to regain

sometimes
i think
you still have it"

and later i add

"and sometimes
i worry
i want to go get it"

and then i would title it something like delusions