I'm listening to the Cure and remembering why I like this album so much and then I listen to the tracks before the one I am stuck on and I hear Picture of You and my room just gets filled with meloncholy so I've got to change the song or I'll never get up to go to work.

I just want everything to settle in to place and for this motivation to be solid and real and not fleeting like it has been in the past because I want so badly to snatch it up and hold it down and make it stay.