i was thinking that i was having one of these intense longing for my mommy moments because of the conversation we had earlier and then there's this music that plays in the game whenever ness goes home and it just eats my heart up
but then before i went to sleep earlier i was having one of those 'oh god when she dies i'm going to really lose my head' moments
i just get so worried sometimes though.. not about that ^ but the relationship that she's in.. she deserves to be a million times happier than she is right now.. hrumph
i just really want to be near that lady. the last time i saw her on a regular basis was when we lived together. that was over six years ago. over seven.
and when i say regular basis, i mean since she moved to chicago 5.5 years ago, i've seen her once or twice a year. that's absurd, when i think about it like that.
i'm going drink some water and try to go back to sleep before i turn into a silly little girl.

i was wondering what it was going to be this week. not nearly as bad as the past few weeks were by this time though. :)